I have always been known to be someone unique in the sense that I choose to believe in people, and those people that I consider as friends, I have considerably immense amount of faith in them.
Faith is believing in something that you do not fully know, or understand. In this case, I choose to trust in the good side of people.
Lately, that faith in people have been terribly shaken. I do not think that I would somehow see people the same way as I naively chose to perceive previously. Sometimes, I just want to believe that someone to be a real good person and that no matter how many wrongs or imperfections that the person exhibits, it does not really matter because I believe that at the end of the day it was the intention that truly counts. Suppose one day you find out that the intentions were nothing near good, and all the traumas and dramas that spiraled out of control led back to you and you know that you have been wrongly exploited in every sense of your weaknesses, you started to realize that, hmmmm, hey maybe that huge chunk of faith has been gravely misplaced somehow, somewhere.
There are times (well, a lot of times in fact) I act according to faith. I am the kind of person who would defend something, or someone, should I see anything against my faith happening in front of my eyes, and if I am within reach of making some impact in the situation, I definitely would throw in a punch or two. If I believe that a friend of mine is a good person, and should someone try to talk him down at his back, I would jump in and defend the friend, though everyone around me would not see the point of me doing so. I believe it is what you do at people's back that truly counts, whether they realize it or not. If I truly consider a friend a true friend, I would never say anything harmful about that friend at his back, or discuss his weaknesses openly with his other friends. And this would be out of the question, but I would also never use his weakness to prey against him in any sense. Instead, I would say all the beautiful and amazing things to his friends or other people while talking behind the friend. Of course this is not some common trait that you will find in people these days, but it is just something that I have proudly chosen to practice. Do take note that, all the above only apply if I consider the friend, a true friend. Should the person be any less of a friend, I, like all vultures in the world would spread poison everywhere (don't ask how vultures spread poison). I am not perfect, I admit.
I guess the downside of placing so much faith in people is subconsciously expecting some sort of return in the end. All I would ever demand was respect, and certain extent of honesty and openness from those that I am close with. More than often, people do not see me as the friend that I see them, and perhaps I only have myself to blame in this regard. Above all, all I ever wanted in return was to have a friend, who would just be there for me and be supportive, putting aside my negative traits, and just accept me as who I am. I have tried my best to do all those things I have mentioned but the tricky part is to acknowledge the fact that people wont be able to see what I see, and want the same things. Maybe these days those things are just too hard to ask for. This is when my faith is in question.
So I turn to you guys, my faithful readers with these questions:
1) Is it wrong to believe strongly in someone, especially if that someone means a hell of a world to you, and saved your life a dozen times over? Seeing the good in this someone, and when other people went against the person, for example telling harmful lies in front of you, would it be wrong to stand up, and raise your concerns regarding your disagreement, based on your faith on that person?
2) Is it wrong to die defending what you believe in? For example, I believe that killing (taking another person's life) is wrong. Even if it means that my life is threatened, I would never give in and would stand firm on my ground, defending my belief that killing will always be wrong.
3) Is it wrong to feel cut when you find out that all your faith you have poured on one friend has been toyed around when that friend has unexplainably chosen the sides of your enemies and openly discuss your weaknesses with them?
I have only this one thing to say, I am who I am, and I will never change this trait of mine. I will keep my faith, whether you like it or not, because it is this faith that defines me, and distinguishes me from you, or anyone else. If I were to give up this belief, then all that I am would have been lost. If you cannot see this much about me, and cannot understand or appreciate it, then maybe you should start to re-evaluate on how much you know about me. I believe friends should be more open to each other, and more importantly, show more faith in each other.
Tell me, what kind of a friendship it is, without faith?