I finished, its over.. I've got a degree in my hands !! Muahahahaa...
In truth, I am one semester away from graduating.
BEFORE THE CEREMONY ENDED...
The graduation ceremony was held at the grand Winthrop Hall in UWA. Of course, one must be officially invited to participate in the event. As for a wandering soul like me, like many others I waited outside the hall in the cold
I got there rather early, while waiting for
the food to be served the ceremony to end, I had some time thinking to myself and reflecting back my past two years here in Perth, and the university. Questions started to flow in from God-knows-where. Innocent yet troubling questions.
Questions like, how the heck are my balls still the same size as before while Kenny Sia has his balls inflated to the size of coconuts over the years in Perth?
OK, that was a bit off, but what I really was thinking back there, how did my life come to this? Why am I in Perth? I know I am here to do my degree, which means ultimately everything will end on grauation day. But seriously, is there more than just a piece of paper? More importantly, how would I feel about my coming graduation?
As odd as this may sound, I do not look forward to my graduation at all. I just feel that there is still something left unfinished. There is no sense of accomplishment yet. I do not know how to fit everything in words. I know somehow, somewhere, things have gone terribly wrong, and I have not the power to mend the broken pieces. Yet, I still go on, with the hurt and pain that no one sees or cares. I guess the point is, after all I have been through up to this point, graduation does not seem to be a celebration worth compensating all the losses counted over the years.
AFTER THE CEREMONY ENDED
To some people, graduation is a milestone in their life, a success to be taken with much pride and contentment. To some people, graduation may be just the next best thing after wedding. To some people, graduation marks the end of suffering and torment in university life, and a chance to move on to a realistic world or careers. Well, I guess being there after last night, seeing all the people dressed up in their gleaming graduation gowns, taking pictures, congratulating each other
And the background music plays, "my heart will go on.. and on...." by Celine Dion.... kehkehkehkehkeh...
I can say I find my life rather sad and full of brokenness, but that may not be entirely true, since I do have my good and beautiful times all the way up till now. I know I should be thankful on a lot of things, and truly look back on the wonderful blessings I have received. I know I should stop looking back, stop complaining, and try to look forward instead. I know there is just one road, and though I am walking the wrong one, I can still find joy, strength and hope in it. I will graduate soon, and from there on, I hope life will take a turn to a better direction.
So, who wants to come for my graduation next semester?